Forgive me for not keeping up to date on my blog. I have neglected all my followers and I am absolutely sorry. There has been a lot going one in my life lately, but that is no excuse.
UPDATE:
I have moved out into the country and now help out on a dairy farm. Yes, I am still at WVIHOP, but only part time right now. I am excited for this new venture. I am learning new things and through all of this, I believe that God is really teaching me. I have learned many valuable lessons.
Lessons:
1. I am not getting paid for either of my jobs right now. I have $3 to my name, and this is what I have been living on for weeks now. I get frustrated being 'poor', but that is one valuable lesson I have learned. I use to make money my god and believed that I had to have it, and a lot of it. In this time with no money, I have taken from it that I need to trust God to provide all my needs. Money is a root to evil. And it will all be stripped away until I can learn that God and my relationship is more important. When I was making a paycheck working, I spent all of it within just a couple days. There was no savings, and I was barely making payments on my bills. I believe that I still have a lot to learn.
I know many of you are thinking that this is absurd, but I am telling you, I have learned a lot. I value a penny, whereas before, I would throw them away. I believe that through all of this, I will have a better understanding of how to steward what God gives me, instead of taking it for granted and wasting it away. I know I am not explaining this all like I would like to, so you are more than welcome to talk to me about it and I will explain it much better! :)
2. Allow others to bless me and not be prideful. I use to have an issue if someone wanted to give me something. Now, I humbly accept it. I am a big giver. If I had millions of dollars, I would give most of it away to those who needed it. I want to be able to help others. When they have an issue with a car or house, I want to have the money to help them repair it or give them a new one that they won't have an issue with. But for me, if you wanted to give me anything, I use to be like no it is ok. I don't like to take things from other people. This is another big valuable lesson.
3. Trusting God. Not just for finances, but for everything. I have grown a deeper relationship with God and I am growing into the person he wants me to be. I can say I have come a long way this year. I was an emotinal wreck for months, begging and pleading God for a reason why He would bring me this far only for me to go through so much. Man, it has been a ride, but I am growing and understanding more and more of what He wants to teach me. He is preparing me for something great. Everything is coming together and only time will tell what He has in store for me.
4. I have been desiring a husband. More like longing for a husband. Trying to search him out and find him. More than searching out and finding more of my God. I have definitely learned that God is in control of even that area. Instead of me searching for a husband and seeking him, I need to let him chase me. The man that God is preparing for me will want to be with me because of my relationship with God. He will find me in the lap of my savior. Right where I belong. Not out searching and wasting time on useless men that have no desire to be in the presence of God. Again, I am probably not explaining all of this as well as I would like. I would love to chat with you and explain more if you would like. :)
Well, there is so much more I could discuss, but I am running out of time. If you would like to sit down and talk with me and see what the Lord is doing in and through me, I would be more than happy to do so.
